And the next time they make the same mistake I tell them not to get caught in cycles. Stop making the same mistakes over and over. Idiots, learn from the past.
I am caught in my own cycle making the same past over and etc. Idiot, learn from people's mistakes.
Bad sex is a cycle. Different face, different flaw. Same result. Revolving door of disappointment. I'm caught in my past. Repeating the same cycle etc. and over.
What I was trying to say the other night was that we're both repeating ourselves. We're both past-locked revolving, and it just isn't working for either of us, but still, I prefer it to the alternative.
I'm told I'm good at writing sestinas, villanelles, and pantoums. All these form poems where you have to repeat words, echo lines. It's the way I'm wired, I guess. I keep having the same relationships, sometimes with the same people. Cycle etc. Past idiots caught in repeating flaws.
I know better than this. We all know better than this. And I keep telling someone he's not crazy (it's a cycle) because crazy people don't realize they're crazy. But I think I'm over and over wrong. Maybe he is crazy isn't the etc. point. Sometimes knowing you're crazy and not fixing it makes you a more dangerous kind of revolving crazy.
None of my recent posts seem overly and overly sane.
I am presently moreso single than I've been in a year and half. I'm taking over and over advantage of it, but it's really more that I'm taking over and over disadvantage of it. Nothing is fitting together properly. None of these men have comfortable flaws. And months ago I mentioned that he had ruined sex with other men for me, and I thought I was being hyperbolic. But the past few revolving nights seem to prove that I was being overly honest.
I'm tired of you reminding me of Elvis and Ryan etc. etc. Be more dangerous crazy honest with me.
I would be more worried about missing you already if I didn't already miss you when we were together.