This first section of the interaction was inspired by the epigraph from Sharon Olds's "Late Poem To My Father". It's also part of a series of poems inspired by a Nicole Homer prompt. The second portion is just my response to how I read this book at eighteen, and how I read this book at thirty-nine. Ten Meals I Don't Remember Eating #10: February 16th, 2016, Cambridge, Massachusetts When I love you now, I like to think I am giving my love directly to that boy in the fiery room, as if it could reach him in time. --- Sharon Olds, "Late Poem To My Father" You were never as eighteen as you were at thirty sitting on my bed in your room playing Kingdom Hearts pretending you didn't hear me knock on the door We had both ordered dinner at the same time from slightly different restaurants Yours arrived first but I had mistakenly answered the door and paid for your meal I knocked louder Not your cluelessly optimistic ex but a parent trying to respect the privacy of an unnecessarily belligerent teenager I had a speech memorized opening with a joke and ending with you moving out again I didn't speak to you for three weeks in case I accidentally recited it You smiled as you took your food into your room I paid for my dinner too sat on the floor in my room watching the door between us imagining I knew how to open it without disturbing you when i was eighteen and less metaphor i read the gold cell from cover to i can't anymore . laughed at the pope's penis and imagined i truly understood the solution . i loved how sharon olds viewed the world outside her own . but when her family came in . her father . her history . her impending children . i . i read them over and over . knowing that i was missing something . all of my love was current . all of my realizations were in other books . all of my love was things . all of my people were something missing .
when i was thirty-nine and prime time soap opera i read the gold cell from back to front . family to the outside world . how much simpler to start with the closeness i don't understand . end with the world i'm afraid to know
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