Purgatory shows the 2019 Superbowl on repeat. A defensive battle . A game of monopoly where you have to win a game of chess before you roll the dice . The spinning beachball of macintosh hell . A nurse asks if you're enjoying the game . She knows you can't speak
You wonder if purgatory punishes you by making you watch live action feeds of heaven ? or hell ? If you will spend eternity learning the strategies of a game . you will never be allowed to play . An elementary school gym class teaching you coaching techniques for a game you don't love
It's the third quarter forever . and you missed the first two . and dread the fourth . Someone on the field is injured . It takes weeks to lift them off the field . You didn't see them get hurt . But there is definitely a body . Concerned looks . Whispering commentators . You realize you are injured too . This is not purgatory . It's a hospital . A tube is breathing for you . Irrigating you . Draining you . The beeping is not television sound effects for an injured player . You are fundamentally somehow broken
When another nurse shows you a remote control . Moves your fingers until you can explore the channels yourself . you realize you do not know where your phone is . your computer . your family . the friend you were having dinner with yester--
The Superbowl ? The Superbowl was a week and a half away . yesterday . When are you ? Where are your cats ? Has anyone contacted your bosses ? Your friends ? Where is everything you own ? How did you get here ?
The television has no answers . and has been heavily filtered . Network tv . Cable news . The cartoon network . A selection of movies where nobody dies . But somehow . They've failed to notice Going In Style . A group of senior citizens rob a bank because they lose their health care and pensions . It occurs to you that whatever has happened to you will not be free . That waking up means bills you can definitely not afford . despite working full-time since you were nineteen . part time since you were twelve . Your future looks like crowdsourcing websites . and affluent friends' grace . You try and will yourself back to a sleep that will not claim you
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